CHAPTER FOURTEEN 

NIKKI'S P.O.V

Myka told me everything, about Nick’s plan and all. I don’t have any problems with it and besides by Nick’s moving on with his life is a good plan for both of us. But I know this doesn’t convince me, him leaving me? Our story is a total mess up. 

“Do you know where will he be going?” I ask Myka who is looking at me with pity. “He doesn’t want to let you know Nikki” she said. I just nod and take a deep breath. “Can I ask you something?” Myka states which makes me smile. It’s like this whole thing is ridiculously awkward. Her being my business partner after our whole mess up relationship because we both love the same guy. Duh!

“Yes, but be sure that I can answer it” I tease. She laughs and smiles. “I know you can answer this. This is just a simple question. Do you still love Nick?” My smile fades and changes into pout. Do I still love him? But I already have a boyfriend. Clint, I love Clint! “I already have a boy---“ “I know, but that doesn’t answer the question” she snaps. “What about you Myka?” I ask changing the subject. “Yes, I still love him” “How can you say that without thinking?” I mutter.

“If you love someone and you’re brave enough to let everyone know then you don’t need to think” she smiles. She really has a point though. Do I really love Clint? Or I’m just convincing myself that I love him even though I know that Nick is the one ruling my heart? Am I that coward? Am I that selfish?

“I guess I’m not that brave enough to answer your question Myka” I inhale desperately. “I guess so” looking at me she handed me my phone which makes me wonder, I saw Clint’s name. Clint is calling me eighteen times and I haven’t even notice it because I’m busy thinking about Nick. I smile at Myka who is still staring at me.

“If you love Nick why did you broke up with him or something?” I ask. “Because I know that no matter what I’ll do, he will be forever head over heels in love with his best friend” she shrugs. “What do you mean?” I ask “I know that since he left your village, he realized that he’s in love with you but he doesn’t have any courage to tell you and accept it in his self because you both keep on saying that you will choose friendship rather than be in a relationship” she coughs “Remember the time that he didn’t respond you letter? It’s because I’m too jealous about you, he keeps on telling me how lovable; sweet; amazing; gorgeous and all the positive compliments a girl could ask for. I know, I sound like terrible or insane but that’s me. I don’t want to regret on things that I haven’t done. So in short I didn’t regret those endless jealousies I made just because I want him to be mine”

“I already know that but not the compliment part” I smile. “He’s so keen on replying your mails but afraid to let me know about it” then she stops talking because of my phone which vibrates indicating a call. Clint! I signal Myka to keep quiet and I answer the phone.

“Clint I’m sorry I haven’t answer your calls bec---“ “Nikki, I’m on my way to L.A. I want to talk to you very important. I’ll see you later” then Clint hangs up didn’t give her a chance to respond. “What happen?” Myka snaps. “Clint is on his way here in L.A and he told me that we need to talk something important” I said with a confuse look. “So, what’s with the creepy look on your face?” “He just hangs up on me” I yell. Myka laugh and sigh. “You’re weird, you know that” I snap.

“Well you both really need to talk. About your feelings for him” she said. “I love him” I scold. “Says who?” she smirk. Then again, she’s right. I keep on convincing my mind that I love him but my heart won’t cooperate.

“I think your right, it’s unfair for him” after I say that Myka claps her hand smile. “So, it’s really too late now” she smirk. “You can sleep her if you want to after all it’s not my condo and speaking of that I’m planning to leave this place. I don’t want any memory of Nick from now on---“ “Until when?” Myka cuts me off “Until I’m ready to face the reality but maybe it’s not that easy and I know that work will help me” I smile.

“Okay, well goodnight” Myka shouts. I on the other hand lay down on the couch separate to Myka’s and let the darkness consumes me.

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Still NIKKI’S P.O.V

I drifted off by the light that enters into the condo, it’s a lovely day. I turn around just to watch Myka siting on where she sleeps while having a cup of coffee on her hands. “Good Morning” she greets. “I think you do have an appointment this early on the restaurant across the road, don’t you think?” she continues. I frown and check my watch, and it say’s ten in the morning. “I have to go, I need to tell Clint that—“ “Don’t worry, I text him already that you are still sleeping and he said that he’ll just wait for you” she smile.

I went straight to the bathroom and do my own thing. I must be presentable on facing Clint for our conversation. I need to be focus on my point and tell him how sorry I am.

My phone buzzes indicating a call. “Hello, who is this?” I ask while tying my hair into a pony tail. “Good Morning Nikki, it’s me Clint. I’m waiting for you; just tell me if you’re ready okay?” “Yeah, I’m on my way and I’m sorry for that” I said while catching my breath because I’m putting my clothes on now. I don’t have time to take a shower ad besides it’s just a coffee thing right? And we don’t need to talk too much longer. “That’s good, let’s just grab a cup of coffee” he said. “Yes, that’s really my plan so see you soon” then after that I hang up. I don’t want him to hang up with me again.

I walk straight to the place where I and Clint will be meeting. I left Myka in the condo; she’s helping me pack-up some things so that I can move to another place and start a new life without thinking about having a relationship with someone else.

“Hey” I jump after recognizing Clint’s voice. He’s with a girl, a beautiful one. “Hi” I smile and walk towards them. “Nikki, meet Shelly my fiancée. Shelly meet Nikki” Clint introduces that makes me gasp. “Hi” I said sarcastically. What the hell? “Hello Nikki” she smiles “Clint babe, I have to go. I just accompany you but I really need to see my friend” she continues. “Sure, I also need to talk to Nikki privately” Clint said. After that Shelly left us.

“So, when’s the wedding” I ask full of anger. “I know that you’re mad that’s why I wanted to talk to you” he said “I’m sorry Nikki, I should have told you much sooner” he shrugs “I don’t know but dad told me about this whole arrangement plan and I was like ‘okay’ but I love you” he finish.

“You love me? Tell me about it! Like ‘hey I love you but I have a fiancée that’s why I need to talk to you and tell you I’m sorry’ is that what you want to tell me? Or I that the summary of all this bullshit?” I said calming my voice as possible. Clint just keeps his silence and bows his head. “Well, it’s not a big deal for me though; I really want to break-up with you” I try to sound nice but I’m terribly beyond mad. “I think that it was unfair for you but after what I witness this morning I literally change my word that I was unfair with Nick” I yell. I couldn’t handle myself anymore.

“Do you know how much I’ve cost for being with you? How many people I left behind to be with you? Clint, I lost my best friend because of you, because of choosing you! I gave up my love for him so that I can love you wholly without limitations but this is what I get?” I sob.

“Nikki, I’m sorry. I’m really sorry” he begs “No matter how much you apologies Clint, I will never get my best friend back. I’ve lost him, now I don’t even know if he still loves me” I mutter whipping my tears away.

“What do I need to do for you to forgive me?” he asks. I look at him with hatred look. I’m so pissed by him. “I don’t want to see you anymore until my heart stops beating” I said seriously and then I left him behind, not caring if he’s shock or not but I mean it.